Faithfulness

I should be going to bed, but if I don't blog this now, I know I won't at all.

Today was really rough.  It was my first day seeing clients again and therefore, my first day driving by myself again.  I had a mini-panic when I approached the same intersection where I had my accident (not because of memories- because I have none- but because I a lady about ran into me.)  It's a pretty ridiculous intersection with lots of things happening, so after talking to Jake and remembering the guy at the impound saying there are tons of accidents there, I have decided that I am going to avoid it.  Anyway, I was just having a hard time because my brain was overworked during sessions and driving.  I seem to start out the day feeling pretty good but then around about lunchtime I start to get a headache that gets worse if I don't take a nap or at least have a lights-out-sounds-off-lay-in-bed-time-out.

So today I was having a mini-meltdown because things are harder than they used to be and because my job is already pretty stressful.  There's no time for me to take a break because their time-sensitive high-risk lives don't just go on hold for me.

Then tonight I got the mail.  I had my first paycheck for seeing clients.  Finally!  It's like 4 weeks behind because either medicaid or the department of human services has to pay my company first and then they can pay me.  That was such a relief.  Then I opened another piece of mail which told me that my federal consolidation loans have gone through (so no more talking to 5 different loan companies and filling out 5 different forms!!!).  There was also a page that had a table on it and another page that explained the table which basically said:

"Congratulations.  You are so poor that we think you shouldn't have to pay any money on student loans right now."

I REALLY like that.

So the end of my challenging day was pretty nice, and I am thankful for that.  God continues to be faithful, even when I'm not so sure what the heck he is doing.  I'll try to remember that when all the medical bills come from the accident and pray that our car insurance agrees to pay them. :)

Let's hope tomorrow has a happy ending because my brain is going to be swamped!