I'm in a really bothersome quandry. At our new apartment we have to pay for our own heat. We also have no idea what to expect in terms of how much heat we can use without totally breaking the bank, so we've been trying to be fairly conservative about how much of it that we use.
However, we have a fish. He's a good fish, but I think maybe he's cold. I caught myself thinking something dangerous earlier today. I thought, "Ya know, I'm not sure that a fish is worth us paying for the heat to stay on while we are away from our apartment." Let me tell you why that thought is dangerous. You see, when I was in junior high, my family decided to move. We had a cockatiel at that time, and we weren't sure where we were going to put her in the new house. I made a joking comment that it might just be better if she died. Unfortunately, my comment came true and I was the one who found the poor dead bird at the bottom of her cage. I was horrified. So now you can see why I'm concerned about the thought I had earlier.
You may be thinking, "He's just a fish. No big deal." Let me personalize him for you. His name is Tiki, which is short for Tiki-Tiki-Tembo-No-Sar-Rembo-Charry-Barry-Rouchie-Pip-Berry-Pembo. He's kind of a spaz, but he often follows my finger. He gets really excited when I come up to the bowl and swims around furiously. Well, at least he used to. Now he sits at the bottom of the bowl and doesn't do much swimming. I think he's cold.
So now that you know the background, what should I do? Do I sacrifice the heat for the fish? Do I stop thinking bad thoughts because it might jinx things and I might end up horrified again, finding a dead fish at the top of the bowl?
Thoughts?